How Prayer Gets You Through Difficulty

How Prayer Gets You Through Difficulty

By Abdul Nasir Jangda

Opening

The Philosophy of Understanding the 'Why'

From a philosophical, historical, and even a very kind of technical, scientific perspective, you'll find that oftentimes people become very obsessed with the what of something. What do you do? But what really is impactful and transformative and transcendent is to understand the why you do something. So there's two questions, whenever you have a task in front of you, there are two questions you can ask yourself.

What to do? And why you do what you do? There is what you believe. When Allah, Muhammad is a messenger of Allah, life after death, and count down the bullet points, what you believe. There's not a lot of power there.

I mean, it's powerful what you believe, but I'm saying it's not like it transcends. It is not infectious. If you tell somebody what you believe, they are not captivated and sucked in by what you're telling them.

But then there is the question of why do you believe what you believe? Now that's powerful. That's where you hear the story that I was in a car crash and I almost died. Or that's when you hear the story that somebody, you know, did such and such for me.

Or I was praying one day. I was reflecting, looking up at the sky. Or I was reading the Quran and I read this ayah.

And that's where that power comes in. And that's how belief transcends. When the question is not so much about the what but the why.

The Importance of Understanding Why We Pray

Why am I mentioning this? Why am I talking about this? See, prayer is mandatory, right? That's the first thing we know about prayer. Mandatory. You have to pray.

Prayer is necessary. Prayer is important. Prayer is a big deal.

And so whenever we process prayer and we talk about salah, we oftentimes obsess over what to do. What to do in terms of prayer. But what we haven't given a lot of thought to is why do we pray? Why is prayer important? Why is prayer necessary? Why is prayer such a big deal? Similarly, when it talks about

the section description says that a lot of times as students or young professionals, busy people with a lot going on, we struggle to pray and have quality within our prayers.

So again, when we try to solve that problem, prayer is a predicament for a lot of people. When you try to solve that problem, you are completely engrossed. You are obsessed with what do I need to do in order to solve that problem? But the issue is that to really have the experience of prayer and take the quality of your prayer to a next level, the question that you need to answer is not what, but why? Why are we praying to begin with?

The Story of the Prophet's Greatest Loss

So what I'd like to do is I'd like to tell you the story about why the Prophet (صلى الله عليه وسلم) was told to pray and when and where he was told to pray. Like to answer the question why. Why was he told to pray? So very quickly, what I need to... I need to give you a little bit of background. And now some of you all might be familiar with this background.

If that's the case, then my apologies. I don't mean to bore you, but bear with me inshallah. I'll keep it as brief as possible.

I'll give you the cliff notes version. The Prophet of Allah, Muhammad Rasulullah (صلى الله عليه وسلم), who of course we believe, is the most beloved of God's creation, was the most remarkable human being to ever walk the face of this earth, is beloved to Allah (جل جلاله) is central to our faith and belief system, regardless of what anybody else has to say.

The Marriage to Khadija

The Prophet Muhammad (صلى الله عليه وسلم) at the age of 25, he married a remarkable, breathtaking, beautiful, intelligent, confident, powerful woman, named Khadija.

Khadija bint Khuwailid (رَضِيَ اللَّهُ تَعَالَى عَنْهَا). May Allah be pleased with her.

Say ameen. He marries this woman who is just, like I said, just breathtaking. It's the kind of woman that would just leave you speechless.

And I'm not saying that in some, God forbid, we're talking about our mother Khadija. Mother of the believers. I don't mean that in some lustful, you know, terrible fashion.

When I say breathtaking, I mean from her akhlaq, to her intelligence, to her character, and her demeanor, and her stature and status, and you know, just everything about her, was just, would take your breath away. Would just leave you speechless.

The Prophet's Description of Khadija

Years later, decades later, after she passed away, someone asked the Prophet (صلى الله عليه وسلم) tell us

about our mother Khadija.

Please inform us about our mother Khadija. And the Prophet (صلى الله عليه وسلم) said, in response, She was, and she just was. Which is the Arabic expression for, for, I can't even put into words how remarkable she was.

Every time I think about her, and I try to put some words together, and this is the Prophet (صلى الله عليه وسلم) the most eloquent human being that ever lived. He says, even I cannot put together the words that capture how amazing she was. You had to be there to know it.

You had to see her to experience it. I can't tell you. He says one time, he says that (رُزِقْتُ حُبّهَا - ruziqtu hubbaha) (Sahih Muslim). And another version says, (رُزِقْتُ بِحُبّهَا - ruziqtu bi hubbaha) Which means that I was sustained through, by means of her love.

Her love nourished me. Her love sustained me. In another narration, he says that (إِنَّهَا كَانَتْ...) I forget the first part of the narration, but he basically says that, you know, she was the love of my life and the mother of my children.

(وَكَانَ لِي مِنْهَا وَلَدٌ) She was the love of my life and the mother of my children. Like just so remarkable.

Their Life Together

So imagine finding that person that as cheesy or as, you know, weird it may sound to some, but think about finding that person that you can call your soulmate.

The love of your life. Your better half. So the Prophet (صلى الله عليه وسلم) marries her.

And they live together, laying down next to one another, waking up next to one another, eating together, sitting together, praying together, working together. They spend 25 years together. 25 of the most remarkable, beautiful years.

During those 25 years, during those 25 years, they've had 6 children. 2 of whom passed away in childhood. Children.

They had 6 children and lost 2 babies out of those 6. But they grew closer and stronger together through that tragedy. Through those 25 years, the Prophet (صلى الله عليه وسلم) received divine inspiration, revelation, was granted prophethood, and the greatest responsibility that has ever been given to any human being and that is to preach the word of God to all of mankind and humanity. And they did it together.

She was the first one to see him and receive revelation. She was the first one to hear it from his blessed mouth. She was the first one to accept it and believe in it and hold his hand and tell him that she would never abandon him and never leave him.

And she was the first one to have his back and to follow him. And during those 25 years, there were 10 years of a lot of difficulty and suffering as a consequence of his message and his mission. But they grew together, closer and stronger together through that experience until finally, she becomes very, very ill.

The Loss of Khadija

And the Prophet (صلى الله عليه وسلم) is just completely, you know, completely overwhelmed by Khadija and even the thought and the possibility of her loss of losing her.

Until finally, one day, she passes away. And it is personally, from a personal human perspective, it is the most painful moment of the life of the Prophet (صلى الله عليه وسلم).

To lose the love of his life, the mother of his children, the first believer, his best friend Khadija (رضي الله عنها). And when Allah (جل جلاله) intends, you know, Allah (جل جلاله) in the Qur'an, He tells us, He made the Prophet (صلى الله عليه وسلم) the ultimate role model.

When Allah (جل جلاله) decided to make the Prophet (صلى الله عليه وسلم) the ultimate role model, He put him through such test and trial that nobody would ever be able to come along and say, Hey listen, you don't know what I've been through. Oh no, he most definitely knows what anybody's been through. The Prophet (صلى الله عليه وسلم).

Actually, I'll come back to this point in just a bit.

The Loss of Abu Talib - A Father Figure

So three weeks after Khadija (رضي الله عنها) passes away, Abu Talib, the Prophet (صلى الله عليه وسلم) Abu Talib has been very sick for a couple of weeks. Who's Abu Talib now, you might ask. Abu Talib is the uncle of the Prophet (صلى الله عليه وسلم). Okay, that's interesting.

I have plenty of uncles. I'm closer to some than to others. But overall, none of them, you know, is somebody that, of course, I would really be sad at the loss of any of them.

But none of these uncles are of such a, I have the type of relationship with where I just, I don't know what I would do without them. The way you feel about like your mother or father. Like where you just can't even imagine without them in it.

Understanding the Prophet's Relationship with Abu Talib

But that's part of the problem. We don't know the life of the Prophet (صلى الله عليه وسلم) as well as we should. And so when we say Abu Talib was the uncle of the Prophet (صلى الله عليه وسلم) and that doesn't strike a chord and resonate with us, it's our fault.

Because we don't know what was their relationship like. The Prophet (صلى الله عليه وسلم) was how old when his mother passed away? Six years old. And the Prophet (صلى الله عليه وسلم) was how old when he

then went to, he never knew his father.

His father was born a couple of months before, his father passed away a couple of months before the Prophet (صلى الله عليه وسلم) was born. His father, the father of the Prophet (صلى الله عليه وسلم) passed away very, very shortly before the birth of the Prophet (صلى الله عليه وسلم). So he never knew his father. His mother passes away when he's six years old.

He stayed with his grandfather that's it. There's nobody. It was Abu Talib who came and then scooped him up in his arms and hugged him and held him tight and quieted him as he cried.

And he held him on that day when he was eight years old and he lost his grandfather, the last person in this world that he recognized, that he identified with as a child. Abu Talib came and held him on that day and never let him go ever again. Never let him go.

Abu Talib's Parental Care

That's how Abu Talib died. So much so that when the Prophet (صلى الله عليه وسلم) started preaching Islam and went to go and fulfill his mission, even though Abu Talib did not necessarily believe or agree with what the Prophet (صلى الله عليه وسلم) was saying, he still held him and supported him and said, I will have your back always. That's who Abu Talib was.

Let me describe a few things to you and tell me if this reminds you of a parent. You know a lot of times our living arrangement in those days would be that every family would kind of have their own like living quarters. I mean kind of think of almost like an apartment building.

Everyone would have their own living quarters but there were certain facilities that would be shared between some of the families. They were all like relatives, extended family. And some of the facilities that would be shared were like the kitchen facilities, like a dormitory.

The Story of Meal Times

And so what they would do a lot of times is in the morning time a lot of the mothers or the women folk, they would prepare the food for the kids and then at a certain time all the kids would basically come and they would all kind of line up and they would get their food and they would put the food out on the table and the kids would come and eat. And there was a time set for the kids to come and have their breakfast in the morning.

The Prophet (صلى الله عليه وسلم) even as a child had such remarkable like integrity and character and dignity.

He had such an air about him that the boys especially, you know how boys are, little boys, they're like wild animals, right? So you know when they would put the food out and they would call the boys in they would like attack the table of food and get it out of the way and it was almost like a little bit of a fight.

And all of a sudden you just see this like movement for five minutes and then they move away from there and all the food is done, right? So the Prophet (صلى الله عليه وسلم) even as a child that's like an eight year old he would stand at the back wouldn't go in there and fight and push and you know yell and scream to get some food. He'd stand at the back until all the other boys were done like animals, haywan, right? And once they would retreat away whatever food was left on the table then he would very in a very dignified fashion imagine the eight year old with dignity, right?

He would go in a very dignified fashion he would take whatever food was left and he would sit down and he would eat it.

Abu Talib's Special Care for the Prophet

And Abu Talib as the patriarch as kind of the elder of the extended family he'd be sitting off in a corner and he would kind of watch this and he saw this for a couple of days and he was fascinated by it but he was also worried about the Prophet (صلى الله عليه وسلم). So he told the women folk that when they would come to put the food out that when you put the food out don't call the boys yet before you call all the boys notify me.

And Abu Talib would go and he would get like a little plate and he would put some food onto it and he would pull it aside and then he would call the Prophet (صلى الله عليه وسلم) and he would sit him down in his lap and he would take the plate of food in his lap and he would feed him. That's what Abu Talib was to the Prophet (صلى الله عليه وسلم)

Abu Talib being the head of the household and the head of the tribe for that matter nobody would eat until he joined the table especially for dinner that was kind of like a formal affair nobody would start eating until Abu Talib came and sat at the head of the table.

But when Abu Talib would come he would come and he would stand and he would look and he would say (أَيْنَ مُحَمَّدٌ؟ أَيْنَ ابْنِي؟ - Ayna Muhammad? Ayna Ibni?) Where is my boy? Where is my son? Where is Muhammad?

And they would say he is a child especially some of them maybe the other elders they would get kind of annoyed like why are we sitting around here waiting for some eight year old? It's humiliating for a bunch of grown people here and Abu Talib would just get up and he would say I am not sitting and I will not eat until my son eats here with me and then somebody would have to go and find the Prophet (صلى الله عليه وسلم) and he would be with the kids playing running around and they would bring him and he would come and Abu Talib would ask him he said son sit near with us he would say no I actually already ate and he would say okay fine if you've eaten then it's good and he wouldn't allow us to eat until he had first confirmed that the Prophet (صلى الله عليه وسلم) had not eaten that's who Abu Talib was to the Prophet (صلى الله عليه وسلم)

Abu Talib as a Father Figure

That's who he was when the Prophet (صلى الله عليه وسلم) first time he got his first job guess who he got permission from? Abu Talib when he wanted to marry Khadija we talked about guess who he went and consulted with? Abu Talib when he had his first child guess who he asked to come that was who Abu Talib was he was like a parent to the Prophet (صلى الله عليه وسلم) and he passes away three weeks after the Prophet (صلى الله عليه وسلم) lost Khadija three weeks it is unfathomable how somebody could handle that such a devastating loss one on top of another.

A Contemporary Story of Loss and Faith

I remember I told this story before so if you've heard me tell this story I apologize I was talking about this tragic you know experience from the personal life of the Prophet (صلى الله عليه وسلم) and while I was talking about this and I was basically kind of talking about like I am here a brother came to me afterwards and what he was talking about really resonated with me and really hit home for me and I asked him you know sometimes just a look in someone's eyes tells you that they have a story to tell so I asked him I said if you don't mind right if you could tell me how you relate to what I just talked about so I can learn because I haven't experienced that type of tragedy in my life.

The Brother's Tragic Story

So he started to tell me that you know I was married for four or five years I was you know going to med school I was in my residency we had two little babies like two and three year old and we were you know completely in love with each other our babies our kids were just beautiful just you can't like they just it just completed everything and even from a financial perspective I was going through med school when we first got married then I was going through residency while we had children it was very difficult it was very hard you know we didn't have a lot of money to do a lot of stuff but I was about to you know take the next step in terms of my career already the offers I was getting were very very lucrative we had already started to look at nice areas and neighborhoods and schools and houses and brand new cars and minivans like it was all coming together it was already just so great and it was about to get better I couldn't dream up a better life than this.

And I come home one day a little bit earlier than I normally would and it was a time when my wife she would you know babies they need their naps and I it was a time that she would you know give them a nap and she herself would get some rest at that time as well so I came home at that time and of course I didn't want to come barging into the house announcing my arrival normally as you enjoy doing to meet your kids and your family so I just kind of came in very quietly I fixed myself up some food I sat down I had some studying to do so I sat down with my books and I ate something and I stayed quiet.

The Devastating Discovery

And after a little while you know when kids wake up and you can start to hear them cry and they get kind of fussy and they start to call out for you so I heard one kid start to cry then I heard the second kid start to cry I got really excited oh they're awake yay party time so I go to the room really excited and I walk in and on the bed she's lying there motionless with both kids one on either side sitting next to her crying you know especially if the kid sees you in front of them and they're crying because they're hungry or they want to be picked up or whatever and then you're not responding the volume keeps increasing so they're screaming their heads off and she's literally not even flinching and that would be bizarre enough for any normal person like myself to notice but him being a physician he immediately realized something's wrong and he went in to check on her and when he checked her he said she had already been dead for a while inexplicably unannounced unexpected she passed away in her sleep maybe even before I had gotten home my kids had been lying there sleeping next to the lifeless body of their mother.

The Crisis of Faith

He said at that moment my world fell apart I didn't know what I'm supposed to do with myself I didn't know I locked myself in a room and didn't come out for weeks I didn't even hold my own children my mother and my brother and my family members took care of my kids because just nothing made sense to me anymore eventually I started to kind of snap out of it I started reconnecting with my kids figuring out life how I'm going to take care of them eventually figured out a way found a way to go back to work and started getting my life back on track as much as I could but there was one big issue my Iman was gone that part of me was just gone it was broken I didn't know what to do.

And my brother who's very devout but not the type of devout person that just kind of like talks down to you that just preaches at you not that type of devout person but somebody who took care of my kids when I didn't know how that guy but also very devout practicing very lovingly, gently he stayed on my case he said pray with me and I kept resisting just leave me alone I don't want to talk about that just you don't know and eventually he kept telling me pray with me, pray with me don't worry if you pray with me it'll be okay you just need to pray you need to talk to Allah and I said no you don't know what's going on.

The Return to Prayer

He said and brother I was talking about this the personal tragedy and he said this morning I didn't have work my mom was available to watch the babies and my brother came to my house and he said brother you know I love you he said I haven't prayed in a year it's been a year since my wife died and I have not prayed I've not put my head on the ground in front of Allah for a year since she died and he came to my house this morning he said brother you know I love you I would do anything for you and your babies but I'm not going to take no for an answer today you are coming and praying Jummah with me I've done

everything I can for you I need, fine you might not do it for the right reasons today but you are going to come with me and pray with me today you're coming so I said you know what okay and I came here.

And you talked about the Prophet (صلى الله عليه وسلم) losing his wife and his uncle and having to look into the eyes of his innocent 8-10 year old daughter beloved daughter Fatima and explain to her that mom is never coming home again and I realize at this moment that just like the Prophet (صلى الله عليه وسلم) got through it I can also get through it.

The Healing Power of Prayer

I was so this brother has been telling me this just like I'm sharing the story with you it was such a powerful experience to just hear it from him and he said when I came here to Jummah and I heard this about the Prophet (صلى الله عليه وسلم) and then we stood up and we prayed and I said Allahu Akbar and I tied my hands and I went in Ruku and when I went into Sujud and my face hit the ground life made sense again everything worked out and I could figure everything out again and that's to answer the question why.

Every single person has their own scars and wounds that they bear some are more public some are more private but realize that prayer is the healing for all of those wounds and scars.

The Divine Gift of Prayer - Al-Isra and Al-Mi'raj

After the Prophet (صلى الله عليه وسلم) lost his beloved wife Khadija then he lost his beloved uncle who was his entire family Abu Talib he was so devastated and heartbroken and Allah (سُبْحَانَهُ وَتَعَالَى) did what Allah (سُبْحَانَهُ وَتَعَالَى) called him on the most miraculous journey any human being has ever enjoyed the journey of Al-Isra and Al-Mi'raj called him above the seven heavens and there gave him the gift of prayer Allahu Akbar gave him the gift of Salah.

That just like you have suffered and you have felt pain the thing that will heal your pain will ease your suffering is this prayer that all of us will suffer and feel pain and we all like I said have our own problems and issues and wounds and scars but prayer can heal those wounds Salah can fix it you just have to make wudu stand in front of Allah (سُبْحَانَهُ وَتَعَالَى) say Allahu Akbar talk to Allah and put your face on the ground in front of Allah and see how everything gets better and everything makes sense that is the why we pray.

There is a long discussion we can have about what prayer is but this answers the question of why do we pray so remember that Insha'Allah as you stand for your prayer and you go forward.

Understanding the Meaning of Prayer

So real quickly I'll just add a little something here at the end and that is I talked about this earlier today again at a completely different session but again in case you were there I apologize you know after realizing why you pray that's a big part of solving this equation of having prayer be something powerful

in your life the second thing I want to give to you is understanding what you are saying in the prayer like I said I talked about this earlier but understanding what you say in the prayer is very very powerful.

You know you guys may Allah (سُبْحَانَهُ وَتَعَالَى) reward you and bless you you've been listening to me talk now for 30 35 minutes and I really appreciate it and a lot of credit goes to you but there is a very simple reason why you can continue to listen to me for 30 minutes even though somebody is jamming out next door to us and the reason why you are able to do that is because you can understand the words that I am speaking the words that are coming out of my mouth you understand them you comprehend them and therefore you pay attention and you listen to them seems like when I get louder they get louder right but that's a very simple reason why.

The Power of Understanding

But here is the thing if I was standing here talking in a language you did not understand you would have stopped paying attention a long time ago you could not I challenge you to listen to me in a language you don't understand and that sounds pretty accurate right you are usually dialed in like Taraweeh prayer in Ramadan you are pretty dialed in for the first 60 seconds and then it's like no no no focus right it's just you just wander off start reading people's shirts if you can read this you have bad khushu' it should be a t-shirt trademark don't steal it.

You can understand what I am saying so you listen but if you couldn't understand what I was saying you couldn't pay attention we have to learn to understand what we are actually saying in our prayer oh and when you do it is so powerful the most perfect words ever were picked up by Allah and placed within the (صلى الله عليه وسلم) prayer and taught to us by the Prophet

The Meaning of Allahu Akbar

Just the most basic initial introductory phrase that we say within the prayer is Allahu Akbar so perfect what does Allahu Akbar mean Allah of course is the name of Allah Akbar comes from the root word which means for something to be big a lot of times it is translated as Allah is the greatest Akbar is actually the comparative not the superlative so Allahu Akbar actually means Allah is greater but that seems like an incomplete sentence because if I say Ahmad is faster than you are waiting for me to finish Khalid you need me to finish the sentence Ahmad is faster than Khalid but if I say Ahmad is faster than it is blank I have left it open ended.

So similarly Allahu Akbar means Allah is greater blank Allah is greater than blank it is left open ended and this is done as a rhetorical device within classical Arabic deliberately intentionally why because wherever there is a blank like that you are supposed to fill in the blank yourself so Allah is greater than blank what goes in the blank whatever it is right now at this moment if the game is on TV and you go off to the side to pray Allah is greater than the game if there is a concert going on next door Allah is greater than the concert if your buddy is waiting for you outside to go grab a bite to eat Allah is greater than the food

whatever it is that is trying to pull you away from the prayer you say Allahu Akbar and you think Allah is more important Allah is greater than whatever it is that is trying to take me away say Allahu Akbar and see how it changes your life.

The Foundation of Meaningful Prayer

That is prayer number one focus on the why you pray and number two learn to understand the meaning we have an intelligent faith and religion a religion of education اقْرَأْ Quran (1961) not recite read what is the difference between read and recite recite is understanding what you are saying read means you comprehend what you are saying with your mouth you comprehend it you process it our religion is one of understanding education read not recite so then learn to read in the prayer not recite understand what you are reading and when you do these two things together how will your prayer.

And I started to tell you something and then I paused you know when a lot of times when somebody when you give somebody advice or somebody gives you advice etc you know sometimes there is a response where you are kind of like I appreciate it thank you but you have no idea you have no idea like I appreciate it but you don't know.

The Prophet's Ultimate Authority on Suffering

So if I am telling somebody that they lost their child be patient they can look back at me and be like have you lost a child I say no I say then you have no idea you don't talk to me I wouldn't be able to say anything and losing a child is actually one of the most tragic human experiences one of our teachers was pointing out to us what do you call someone who has lost their parents an orphan there is a word for it what do you call a woman who has lost her husband a widow what do you call a husband who has lost his wife a widower what do you call a parent who has lost a child there is no word for it not in English not in Arabic because it is so not even that you dare not give a name to it it is not supposed to happen.

And the Prophet (صلى الله عليه وسلم) that greatest human tragedy and you know again some of the youngins might be sitting there thinking like you know that is presumptuous to call that that is subjective that is your opinion to call that the greatest human tragedy is to lose a child when you are a parent then you will be able to tell me anybody who is a parent here can tell you losing a child there is no greater tragedy than that the thought can't even enter your mind without destroying you just the thought destroys you so that greatest human tragedy of losing a child the Prophet (صلى الله عليه وسلم) suffered that six times in one lifetime Allah (سبحانه وتعالى) blessed him with seven children in his own lifetime.

So when the Prophet (صلى الله عليه وسلم) says be patient you listen to the man because he knows exactly what he is talking about he has been through the greatest human tragedy six times.

Prayer as the Divine Response to Tragedy

And the reason why I bring this up is that when you understand why you pray and then you understand the meaning of what you are saying in your prayer that then your prayer becomes your response to even the greatest tragedy when he lost his child

pray that even at the greatest human tragedy imaginable which is losing a child pray.

(إِذَا حَزَبَهُ أَمْرٌ فَزِعَ إِلَى الصَّلَاةِ) (Abu Dawud 1319) when anything would come up or happen he would immediately at once go to prayer and prayer would give him the strength it doesn't make the problem disappear don't get me wrong I'm not going to sit here and preach some foofy garbage to you it doesn't make the problem disappear but it gives you the strength the conviction the belief, the clarity, the fortitude that you need to get through that difficulty that's what prayer will do it's a direct one-on-one connection between you and Allah that will give you strength that you never could've imagined beyond your comprehension.

Conclusion and Final Prayers

Treat the prayer as the treasure that it is embrace prayer as the gift that it is the one-on-one conversation between us and Allah (سبحانه وتعالى) I pray and I hope that Allah (سبحانه وتعالى) makes prayer as it was for the Prophet (صلى الله عليه وسلم) makes the prayer the coolness of our eyes say ameen and may Allah (سبحانه وتعالى) make the prayer our means of fighting through difficulty and adversity say ameen and may Allah (سبحانه وتعالى) make prayer the thing that sustains our souls say ameen.

(جَزَاكُمُ اللَّهُ خَيْرًا) I'm going to go ahead and call it a session at least for myself first and foremost my apologies I would stay spend a little bit more time with y'all even answer any questions but I was supposed to be on another stage yeah Dr. Altaf Hussain is texting me so he said are you coming to the main hall if you don't come to the session don't worry I still love you he's like my favorite person but so I'm supposed to be on stage 20 minutes ago so I have to depart from this session Sheikh Waleed was not able to make it to this session I'm just trying to save the brothers embarrassment because you're going to hate this guy if he's like Sheikh Waleed ain't coming leave right so Sheikh Waleed was not able to make it to this particular session please excuse him I know Sheikh Waleed something must have come up and that's why he was not able to make it.

(جَزَاكُمُ اللَّهُ خَيْرًا وَالسَّلَامُ عَلَيْكُمْ)